February 2012
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Questions to answer:
Answers I owe you today (apparently):
-“What have I done to require you to be so angry with me and shut me out like you’re doing?”
-“Why on Friday did I deserve to hurt so much that I wanted to die?”
-“Why does the tone of your messages sound as if you hated me for directing this same attitude toward you?”
-“Why do I still feel so much for you...
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Peace.
There is nothing in my life I want more than peace. Peace in my own life and with the people I impact.
What I loathe is a burnt bridge. And I’m feeling the flames.
All I feel is unrest, and it’s starting to appear in my dreams the more I try to ignore it.
I never wanted to hurt anyone. I want to keep all of the people who I’ve ever had a relationship with of any kind,...
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Future post.
Acknowledging the fact that my life has made two, completely different 180s…in 6 months. I am not where I expected to be in any way, shape or form. I think that’s beautiful.
I think life is beautiful no matter what happens to you in it. In the midst of the ugliest hour, there is always beauty and grace and hope. Somewhere. You just need to will yourself to be see it.
I think life is...
January 2012
22 posts
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The very best thing a father can do for his daughter is to love her mother.
– Anon. Some of the truest words ever spoken.
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Sunday, bloody Sunday.
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I wish this would be it.
I really am sick of dating.
If this were it, I would be happy.
I’m never going to settle, but I hope this is it.
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We are small
I sit in bed and wonder:
What if all was stripped from from walls and all I had to stare at was the ceiling?
What would I think of?
I have a pretty good imagination, so I did it. And the only place my mind went:
The miniscule lives we live, represented by the specs on my spackled (correct term?) ceiling.. each speck making up a larger being. Each thing we do is a speck, and it contributes to...
ATTENTION ALL GIRLS AND LADIES: if you walk from...
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Honestly
Can I be honest?
I’m tired of looking. I’m tired of dating. I have a pretty simple standard when it comes to men:
-Don’t have an anger problem.
-Be supportive.
-Have goals, and be on your way to reaching them.
-Go to church/believe in God.
One of those things has made my dating journey extremely frustrating: Church.
No one goes anymore.
Or they tell me they do, but...
December 2011
23 posts
Evaluation.
That moment when something really, really divine happens. You earned it.
And you realize you have no one to celebrate it with. You don’t tell anyone you know, because it’ll cheapen it. You would only really share this with someone special.
You reached a goal. & they always warn “It’s lonely at the top.”
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TRIX OF THE TRADE.
– Freedom of choice and quality
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Heartbreaker
Sometimes you just have to break hearts.
Keep it real & be honest. That’s all you owe anyone.
You can’t help who is more sensitive than you. You can’t help who is more invested. It isn’t your fault. And when they cry & whine…tell them you warned them. Tell them you are still there but you don’t owe them anything.
You NEVER owed them ANYTHING.
Got...
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I want to wear leggings, slouchy boyfriend sweaters & dresses every day, for the rest of my life. Where, when and how can I make this possible?
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Marriage, what?
Today, for the first time I can remember, I stopped… And thought about my age.
As a girl, at what age did I expect/plan to get married? Answer: 21.
How old am I now? Answer: 22.5
If I met the love of my life tomorrow, how old would I be by the time we were married (soonest)? Answer: 24
Well….that didn’t go as planned. I’m not mad. It’s just weird to think about....
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“If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are. Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can...
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The Beauty
I have made it a point for years (not all) to try and see the beauty in everything.
It has been a conscious effort.
I look down on people who choose to see only ugliness.
Pessimists, who can’t appreciate the roof over their heads
or the air in their lungs
or the parents who love them
or the friend who would die for them.
And then there’s love. Love is a little more complicated.
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plans
I don’t need to know what I want.
I don’t need a plan.
It will be here when it’s meant to.
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It really isn’t about what I think, it’s about what I see
– Bill Cunningham (via le-one)