May 2012
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Eternal Sunshine.
Eternal Sunshine always brought me clarity
Clementine : Joel, I’m not a concept. Too many guys think I’m a concept or I complete them or I’m going to make them alive, but I’m just a fucked up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind. Don’t assign me yours.
Joel : I remember that speech really well.
Clementine : I had you pegged, didn’t I?
Joel : You had the whole human...
April 2012
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timing
Love and opportunity all come at the right times.
Not every day will be great.
Not everyone will be the one you have been waiting for.
Not every job will end well. And not everything will come easily. Actually, most days it seems NOTHING comes easily. Sometimes, your hard work won’t pay off in ways you can see. Sometimes, your good deeds will seem to go unnoticed. Sometimes, you will...
March 2012
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jobz
As of about a week ago, I started dreading going to work.
I immediately knew it was time to find a new job. Because life is WAY too short to dread 8 hours out of EVERY DAY.
I want to work somewhere I feel somewhat secure, appreciated, and at least somewhat adequately paid.
I went to college for a reason. I want to use the degree I paid so much for.
THE END.
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Life.
Just obsessed with life and its beauty right now. Despite the pitfalls.
Stop and think.
Your life is not as bad as you think.
You’ve never lived today before. You’ve never been this age. You’ve never been under these exact circumstances, whatever they are. Treat them like they are significant and special. As they are.
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Stand-Still
Life can’t be just about work.
I have no job security. I want to work with all of the blood, sweat & tears I have to offer to just KEEP. THIS. AFLOAT.
But will this job be what defines me?
How much time and anxiety is too much?
But…what if it’s not just a job. When does it stop being a job and start being a calling?
When do I stop feeling “bad” about all of...
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Passion
My passions in life don’t include makeup and the color pink.
My passions include: Words. Communication. God. Conversation. Art (Yes, this includes fashion. Wearable fucking art.). Living life on PURPOSE. Being a blessing and positive force in the lives of my family and those who have chosen to be in my life as I have chosen to be in theirs.
Don’t judge me by what you think I look...
February 2012
15 posts
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Questions to answer:
Answers I owe you today (apparently):
-“What have I done to require you to be so angry with me and shut me out like you’re doing?”
-“Why on Friday did I deserve to hurt so much that I wanted to die?”
-“Why does the tone of your messages sound as if you hated me for directing this same attitude toward you?”
-“Why do I still feel so much for you...
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Peace.
There is nothing in my life I want more than peace. Peace in my own life and with the people I impact.
What I loathe is a burnt bridge. And I’m feeling the flames.
All I feel is unrest, and it’s starting to appear in my dreams the more I try to ignore it.
I never wanted to hurt anyone. I want to keep all of the people who I’ve ever had a relationship with of any kind,...
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Future post.
Acknowledging the fact that my life has made two, completely different 180s…in 6 months. I am not where I expected to be in any way, shape or form. I think that’s beautiful.
I think life is beautiful no matter what happens to you in it. In the midst of the ugliest hour, there is always beauty and grace and hope. Somewhere. You just need to will yourself to be see it.
I think life is...
January 2012
22 posts
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“The very best thing a father can do for his daughter is to love her mother.”
– Anon. Some of the truest words ever spoken.
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Sunday, bloody Sunday.
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I wish this would be it.
I really am sick of dating.
If this were it, I would be happy.
I’m never going to settle, but I hope this is it.
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We are small
I sit in bed and wonder:
What if all was stripped from from walls and all I had to stare at was the ceiling?
What would I think of?
I have a pretty good imagination, so I did it. And the only place my mind went:
The miniscule lives we live, represented by the specs on my spackled (correct term?) ceiling.. each speck making up a larger being. Each thing we do is a speck, and it contributes to...
ATTENTION ALL GIRLS AND LADIES: if you walk from...
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Honestly
Can I be honest?
I’m tired of looking. I’m tired of dating. I have a pretty simple standard when it comes to men:
-Don’t have an anger problem.
-Be supportive.
-Have goals, and be on your way to reaching them.
-Go to church/believe in God.
One of those things has made my dating journey extremely frustrating: Church.
No one goes anymore.
Or they tell me they do, but...
December 2011
23 posts
Evaluation.
That moment when something really, really divine happens. You earned it.
And you realize you have no one to celebrate it with. You don’t tell anyone you know, because it’ll cheapen it. You would only really share this with someone special.
You reached a goal. & they always warn “It’s lonely at the top.”
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“TRIX OF THE TRADE.”
– Freedom of choice and quality
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Heartbreaker
Sometimes you just have to break hearts.
Keep it real & be honest. That’s all you owe anyone.
You can’t help who is more sensitive than you. You can’t help who is more invested. It isn’t your fault. And when they cry & whine…tell them you warned them. Tell them you are still there but you don’t owe them anything.
You NEVER owed them ANYTHING.
Got...